Lanterns in the Quiet Hours
By Bayan Badwan
By Bayan Badwan
In the quiet hours,
when the world folds itself into shadows
and your breath feels like a borrowed thing—
there is a place between one heartbeat and the next
where hope still hums,
fragile,
but alive.
You are not meant to face the night alone.
When the storm inside your ribs rises
like a tide you can’t command,
reach—
even if your hand only trembles
toward the smallest glimmer.
Sometimes a single message,
a whispered “I’m not okay,”
is the first thread
in the rope that pulls you back
from the edge of silence.
There are strategies,
soft and stubborn,
that wrap around you like warm light
in the coldest room.
Talk to someone—
anyone who can hold your words without dropping them.
A friend, a therapist,
a stranger on the other end of a hotline
who has sat in the dark long enough
to recognize its outlines.
Let your voice be the lantern.
Let it shake.
Let it spill.
Let it save you.
Make a safety plan,
piece by piece.
Write the names of the ones who anchor you,
the places your lungs expand,
the small things that keep you tethered—
the way sunlight stains your wall at 7 a.m.,
the way your favorite song
still remembers how to lift you.
Keep these close.
Tape them to your mirror.
Fold them in your pocket
like a promise you can touch.
Remove the danger from your hands.
Give the sharp things to someone you trust.
Lock what shouldn’t be near you.
Let your environment become gentle,
even if you aren’t ready to be yet.
Breathe—
not the shallow breath of fear,
but the kind that unfurls slowly,
teaching your body
that life is still here,
waiting.
Count the inhale,
hold the pause,
release the weight
you’ve been carrying alone.
And when the thoughts arrive,
heavy and convincing—
challenge them.
You are not the villain they claim you are.
You are not a burden.
You are not beyond repair.
The dark is a liar
that speaks with your own voice.
Answer it with truth,
with your own softness,
with the stubborn knowledge
that pain is not permanent
even when it feels endless.
Reach for support,
for connection,
for the hands stretched toward you
even when you feel unworthy of them.
People want you here
more than the shadows want you gone.
Let them remind you
that the world is bigger
than the ache you carry.
Walk outside
and let the wind touch your skin.
Open your window
and let the night air cool the fire in your mind.
Drink water.
Eat something small.
Let your body know
you haven’t given up on it.
Find beauty in the quiet places:
the moon rising slow and steady,
the hum of traffic at dawn,
the way trees bend
but rarely break.
You are allowed to be soft
and still survive the storm.
And above all,
remember this—
you are not alone.
You have never been alone.
Even when your heart feels hollow,
even when the world feels indifferent,
even when your own thoughts turn against you—
there are people who will sit beside you
until the sun returns.
Stay.
Stay for the moments
you haven’t lived yet—
the laughter you haven’t heard,
the people you haven’t met,
the healing you haven’t felt.
Stay for the day your own story
finally turns the page.
You are more than the pain.
You are the whole book,
every chapter,
every breath.
And somewhere, out beyond this moment,
light is waiting
to find you again.
Stay—
long enough for it to reach you.