The Circle Continues
By Juwairiyya Eissa
By Juwairiyya Eissa
Break me further
and continue the damage that had already been done.
Destroy me
and kill the last bit of humanity left in me
further than the one before you.
Anger me
until I see no reason
to believe in love ever again.
That’s how my relationships have been feeling
over and over,
as if they made a bet
that the next could do worse than the first.
They fix what the other had done,
but not completely,
just enough to make me think I have healed.
And the moment I begin to believe that,
they reopen the old scars
in the most cruel way possible
and create new ones.
And so the circle continues.
Every friendship or relationship that came and went
left me a scar with such an original story,
so I would never forget.
Yet the key
of every single haunting story
is me.
So is my fate
just to meet bad people
that love the game of worsening
an already broken girl
or am I so unlovable
that everyone gives up
and abandons me
because there is no other way out?